7 years of motherhood, the lessons, shifts, struggles and new chapter
7 years ago (in july) I jumped off the cliff and dove right into motherhood without knowing what awaits me. I dropped all my identities and opened myself to whatever was coming.
Without a plan or a vision, but many open wounds.
It’s taken a lot of new homes, boarded planes, strategic alignmnets, birth preparations, looks into ancestry and void, new encounters to always stay true to myself and follow the intuition.
Not many people talk about that the side effect of having a baby is always saying goodbye to the life you had before and the first two years are shakey. The fisrt two years always bring the exact challanges, stories and love the family needs. These start to unfold suring pregnancy and bring energetic message through birth. Whatever happens at the birth will be brought into postpartum as a part of the evolution.
The first 2 years with Fauna took me into self discovery where I had to stand still and face my fears in order to rediscover my truth and power.
The first two years with Ona, I was brought into the feminine world and challanged my emotional world and wounds of the little girl.
The first two years of Yuka’s life (closing in june) also our home breech birth, veery structure of our life, belief, and family got literally shot in the head. Like in her birth, in our life everything old died so the vision of our life could be born.
Such special energy on the island and now back to Slovakia to spend some magical moments there for who knows how long. The vision of having two residencies, morgage and rent free is coming into life 🪄
Me and the girls have been fascinated by the Selkie Myth, do you know it?
Selkie is a woman who danced with her sisters by the ocean while taking off her skin whoch got stolen by a farmer who dreamt of marrying her. He took her to his home and made her his wife. She could never fully comit to his love, because she dreamt of her old life. They had children but eventually she found her old skin and run away for ever.
This myth holds so much gold within and I have been in constant reflection with it.
To some extent it is an advantage to become a mother and not having a strong sense of self developed. Whatever comes to me is a blessing or gift but then you come to a crossroad when you have to decide wheater I want to keep taking what life brings or start to form the sense of self that feels good and has impact on me and my family.