Are we allowed to live the life of our dreams?
What it's like to be a dreamer who translates dreams into reality. Become a wizard with me
It’s been a while, I know but here I am still dedicated to what I love, writing.
People often ask me how do I manage it all, moving countries, birthing babies, writing, sharing, taking care of other mamas…The answer is I don’t know, I believe someone up there is sending me extra energy so that I can be in service in the highest possible ways I came here to be. Truly this lifetime feels important for many reasons, but let’s not get into the woohoo.
I am not going to lie, today has been hard, I felt an urge to actually sit down and write, and when the moment came all inspiration was gone. I still want to write about the exciting crazy wild experiences I have been through over the past month. I will share with you how it has been attending births as a birth keeper while tending to my own family. How I communicate with the universe while working with these families. How fucking broke we are. The struggle and excitement of starting our own businesses. Why and how I am weaning Yuka at two. My journey to starting eating meat and how I deal with my wound from having abandonment wounds. Oh wow, the feeling of enjoying the writing has finally kicked in. Another beautiful topic that has been on my mind lately is the idea of creating a tribe and how important it is to have one if you are weaving homeschooling and work. I will mention the difference between living off grind rural life and a full in apartment big town experience. The last but not least I want to share my observation about female cycle, creativity and stress release. This will be a long one, but I am sure we will enjoy it together.
Birthkeeping and serving families
Before we left Mallorca, I put out there in home birth groups the info about my services. One single mother reached out to me saying her due date is exactly 10 days of our arrival and that she would love if I could perform the closing bones postpartum ceremony for her. We met and she mesmerised me with her story and she asked me to attend her birth. All my fears crumbled away as I heard her dedication to feminine and trust in herself. She happened to be living 2 minutes away, so we were meeting frequently with the children or during prenatal sessions. We became very close and I realized that is the only way I can attend births, in intimacy with the families. That through building trust, listening and observing what is necessary we can create bond that will carry the baby and mother through the portal. The mother was without the partner and little did I know this played an important role in the birth. The midwife attending the birth was the one that was present at Yuka’s home breech birth so we are really close. Before this I only attended my own birth and a birth of a woman where I came straight away when baby was coming out, so I was not there for the whole experience. Seeing this transition from a maiden into mother was deep and breathtaking at the same time. Only in this gentle space I saw how insufficient the current birth system is. The mother needs deep caring for her body and soul and us birth workers are there to hold her and bring up the necessary topics so she can look inside and find her own answers.