Long green tea mornings and feet connection
How choice to homeschool impacts everything we feel, choose or live
In the long evening moments, in deep alpha states, when Onka touches my legs with her chunky feet, I reminisce about how the choice to homeschool lowers the amount of stress we feel and on the contrary how challenging it can be if you want to show authentically with your kids to accept your shadow sides. Well you may ask but how does this relate to actually bringing your children to school or not? Hmmm, once you decide to homeschool you have to rebuild your whole life and self. You can no longer operate from the place of your old self, because it would not work. Once you decide you are in things like How do I structure my day, What language and vocabulary do I use, Do I follow my passions, Am I happy in my relationships? Am I compassionate to others, Do I nourish myself enough to be there for the others? One may but still how is it connected to living life with your kids around?
(If this topic is of your interest you can reach out for more info about my upcoming workshop about homeschooling on the june 24th.)
Let me explain you the difference, if you live life with your children around, you can’t fake it. All your “self” will emerge throughout the day or the life you co create. When your children are around, you will be acting differently as if you only see them couple hours a day. Maybe you will be less tired and feel more desire to be present and make up for the missing out, but if they are there with you, they will witness you as authentically as you can be. With your pain, with your madness, with your desires to improve, learn and let go. They will witness and present you with who you are day by day giving you an opportunity to make actual changes in they way you think, structure your day, interact with others. You will then only have two choices keep witnessing you in an endless loop of circumstances and cycles or you choose to get better and start living the life you always wanted to.
Experiencing time
Showing up as you are in life is a deep spiritual advantage of the journey. Another one on the similar scale is how you experience the time. Once you feel and tap into the decision to raise your own kids, you realise the time spent is present, feels in your body differently , safer, more profound with a jolly tint of love. And the time spent in absence or in “ugh I hate what is right now can we go to the next moment please?”is going to feel that it did not exist. I want to feel these moments when the kids are small, were actually felt, experienced with power and joy of the ecstatic ride. I want to know I was there the first time they find out about a small nature miracle or hold them when they fall or listen to the stories filled with anger and mostly see them bind, interact and learn how to be with the others. Not many of us are able to hold this amount of intensity, but those of you who hear the calling trust that you are the ones equipped with the skill set to craft your life around soul evolution.
Our emo-cave
Facing your emotions and learning how to work with them will be your most challenging companion through your every day. Emotions have been suppressed and misinterpreted for centuries. There is not an actual way to teach one how to work with them, because they are what makes us human. Emotions are connected to the intuition and the heart, they “don’t make sense'“ in a pragmatic way, but they are amazing tools to help us live peaceful and happy life. They are little navigators to help us resolve problems, help us heal or simply guide us to the presence. The emotions are tested when around our children because they mirror us those that are our challenge in life. Emotions teach us about ourselves and hint where we need to look closer. Many people say they cannot be around children especially for this reason, that the mirroring of the children is too much to handle. Dropping the shame of your emotions and tapping into safety while releasing them will show you and your children how to navigate them with ease.