The art of balance, saying goodbye to homeland Slovakia, coming back home to Mallorca, void
Creation through motherhood, tribe, and the life we deserve, through radical self path
Hello dear Soul,
I am writing to you,
from our nap time heaven as I usually do.
Ever since I’ve been a mother I do this during every nap time, I write. It is a way of nourishing my being, and 4 months ago I decided to expand beyond the ig format and start sharing in more depth.
I was affreid of the commitment until one of the mothers at Mama Camp, brought up the concept of commitment being a sign of maturity, and when you truly love something you don’t fear being commited. This has sparkled inspiration in me and ever since I’ve tried to share regularly here. It has been so great to have you read my intimate observations, life momentums and expand in this way.
We came to Slovakia mid July and when we were going away from our land in Mallorca, I felt this greatness awaiting us on the journey. One woman has already contacted me for potentionaly attending her birth, and I felt I was going to be working a lot, even though I didn’t know what it was going to look like.
I am going to reveal to you what this piece is going to be about so you can decide weather these themes are inspiring enough for you to go paid:
~ Mother in her purpose, finding balance between nourishing myself, my family and serving women, my fear of becoming unavailable mom
~The financial challenges and the golden path of abundance after leaving 9-5 structures as a family
~Pinworms, gut health, and how to trust the childrens’ microbiome without putting pressure on them, weaning as a family of 5
~Finding your tribe and why going beyond your bubble is worth it
~shifting fears, insecurity, shame and childhood trauma in partnership
~collective fear of releasing heavy emotions
~why playing heart break songs is worth it
Don’t forget that I have a Intimate Birth talks workshop coming up and you can still sign in! It is going to be profound and interesting for sure!
Thanks for listening yesterday’s audio journey, currenltly there is a gigantic black moth flying around my room, and I couldn’t think of a better way of unverse speaking to me. I hope to bring more audio medicine to you (paid subs), whenever the nature will invite me, so tag along please and be patient with me.
Mother in her purpose, finding balance between nourishing myself, my family and serving women
This summer has been big for our family because it was the first time that I was working full time, attending births, helping with meal trays in postpartum, lactation support, assisting to break a lot of family trauma during pregnancy, creating community for new mamas, crafting the shirts, holding closing bone ceremonies, and writing here on Substack. We didn’t really have much time to adjust to new schedule and we were taking it on the go.
Lately I heard the term “Art of balance” a lot in my head, I think it is not necessary to be happy, I prefer to strive for balance, making it an act of creating art of it every day. Balance for me is inner harmony expressed in my external reality, knowing I don’t have to fix my chaos.
My wound of my mothers career path has came up deeply. I had a dream asking a friend who was a gynecologist in the dream weather I still have womb, meaning if I didn’t destroy her with my go go go lifestyle. I had to sit with the knowing that I can only do a certain amount of tasks, in a day. I truly don’t want to become the goer, the boss babe, the hustler, for the sake of doing what I love, but somehow I need to reconstruct that kind of set up to see that it is not for me. I had to re visit my wound of my parents being involved with patients, projects and the lack of their presence. It was interesting and now I am very happy to enter the void where the cosmic mother invites me, on our land.
Another deeply transforming knowing became that I cannot be there for people who destroy my creative force or only take. I used to be dependent on that kind of people, but now I see that it is a coping mechanism that does not serve me anymore.
What has really helped us with maintaining balance was to spend the family time in nature, with elements mostly water and fire and I detached from the need to complain. When I was tired, I was tired, when I was hungry I was hungry but mostly I didn’t let those let me down. My children connected with our community, external world and mostly Tomas. He found a nice groove with them so I could focus on creativity.
Leaving home felt, ok. I was very thrilled to go to the births, the only challenging thing was for me to have the phone on for 4 weeks for every birth. I truly struggled with that but then I became used to it. Yuka managed to sleep both nights, but the first time Tomas and her were looking at my pictures and saying my name. This was a beautiful and necessary transition for us so the Art of balance in our life could be restored. Isn’t it funny how the things we fear are our biggest blessings?
Girls were very ok with me going, but now I see that they crave my presence. Finding balance in what we love is an ongoing process of devotion.
Between all this Tomas was going to his studio and finsihed his photo book that will be hopefully available soon. (maternity, family life themes) We love showing our girls that what we love is possible to be our income, but it is not sometimes easy.