W O M B
when I was little I wished I was a man. Material world just seems so easily accessible to them. The world of energy and etheric particles, hidden in the womb was strange to me. My periods hurt, I resisted rest, and was ashamed of my body.
Some part of the wisdom of the womb woken after my two births. Still there was dominion by man present in thise births and some parts remained locked.
After Yuka’s home breech birth something has shifted. I started to feel everything, quite literally physically, inside my womb. it’s s feeling that comes before the thought comes and something about me trusting in Yuka’s birth, is connected to trusting my feelings.
Trusting my feelings has never been easy. Especially since I could never understand them and mostly did quite the oposite of what they asked me to do.“I feel a need to be angry, but I prefer to withdrwl”
“I want to stay alone but will just push through”
Feelings are navigators, taking us to our next step. They emerge to send us a message, but we learn to supress them for survival. An activated womb has a capacity to transform energy if necessary and work with it’s owner.
I noticed my womb activate shortly after the birth. It was so surprising as if a long forgottne skill emerged. It was a familiar feeling or an experience, yet being lived from absolutely fresh lenses. I started to listen and actually see that if I quiet my mind I will feel more and be able to be more in flow. For this I needed to rest in trust and that was a vibration I experienced in the breech birth.